GOOD NIGHT

i am free and so i am enjoying my sessions of day dreaming ... it will last for sometime and then i will get bored ...

a guy who knows about my beak up ( a college pal) calls me up today and fixes an appointment of 11 pm .

says he has to discuss something .

though he kind of likes someone and had a short stint with her , somehow i maintain a distance with him .

he had been very helpful in my colege days and so i am just being courteous.

called up at 11 and i knew it would be a stupid topic and so it was .

he like , " tell me how do you guys restrain yourself from talking to your ex "

i was already irritated and got utterly pissed when i heard this ..

i gave him a mouth ful ..

" i am quite sure that i do not want to carry on with this relationship and i have realised long back that he doesn't need me any more and also hes no longer waiting for me "

"i have accepted the truth "

he was stupid enough to continue the talk and gave silly arguments ...but i stopped him right there ...

someone told me that guys get aroused sometimes by just hearing a gal's voice .

he understood that i was not in a mood to solve his problem and he decided to wrap up the nocturnal talk in just 3 minutes .

before hanging up , i was courteous enough to wish him "GOOD NIGHT"

29 june , 2009

Met an old friend today after 5 long years
this guy and me have been friends since we were one and a half years old .we played together , studied together , went to the same school , same tuitions ..sounds like childhood sweethearts ??
sorry to disappoint ther is no romantic angle involved here ..
though he admitted long back that he had a crush on me for sometime ..but that was it!!
he's been seeing a gal since his college days ..almost 2 years now …
unfortunately his college and office are in 2 different cities … long distance relationship what kind of love that it is god knows ..poor he ..he spent 40 thousand bucks in 4 days so that he could explain to his gal hes the one for her …the urgency of explanation ?? well this gal seems to be badly smitten by a guy who was an old flame …
my friend was quite upset that he had gifted his gal a lipstick when he himself has not …
well he has given her quite expensive things but never so small and so sexy a thing like lipstick !!
I can bet that the colour was either bright red or a soft shade of pink …
Though both the colors are quite different …both are sensuous in their own way …
Hats off to this guy for having the capability of understanding what exactly can turn a gal on ..
Well I for myself have never met such an interesting guy and needless to say never received a lipstick as a gift ..

Longtime back someone had told me that he had got a lipstick for me ..the one which in tv ads showed that it did not get spoilt even after 24 hours of wearing it … and he said “it wont get off your lips even if I kiss you” ..
mmmm…sounds like bliss..

but since we stayed in different cities ..we met a long time after he told me this …
I was expecting though that he would hand it over to me … but he came with a salwar kameez and a biiiggg “odhni” …and I felt too shy to ask him about it ..

Thud…

That was the sound of me hitting reality …

And the events that followed , I am sure that by now it must have been used by some gal and thrown away or may be if she is as stupid as me , she might still be holding it close to her heart !!!

27 june, 2009

My diary

27.06.09

Since yesterday I have been on a high . the animal in me is dominating . all day , all night I am just dreaming . I am arousing the already aroused hungry animal in me .

I desperately want two arms around me ..so that I can take in ..the force , the power that keeps this earth going …

I have let loose the wildest of my fantasies.

I have read somewhere that we should not feel guilty about who we fantasise about , fantasizing is not a crime !!!

So I have opened all the chains of my imagination …

And my body is responding to that …

Ahhhh…what happiness !! what satisfaction !!

Loving it ……