going back

i am going back to that place for a day where all my memories had taken birth .

even though it is for a day , my senses are all worked up ...

every small thing has started coming back from the darkness .

i dont have words to express the pain i experience when i think of my past years .

" kaun kahta hain nahi badalti hain takdeerein ?

apno karmo se likhte hain hum apni haath ki lakidein ""

peace of mind

god ! give me some peace ...
if things continue at this rate , death doesnt seem to be far !!

show some light!!

uff these mails !!

i have had this experience before . guys who do not have the courage to talk openly send mails under cover ..i mean withou disclosing their identity .
a guy who called himself tom hanks mailed me frequently when i was in 11th . i was young and so had a curiosity to know who it was . later i found out that it was a guy who used to come to the same cafe a sme and had my id by peeping into the screen.

again in my 1st year the same thing happened . this time it was the boy frnd of a close frnd of mine . he said that he had a crush on me .

it happened again yesterday . another guy who knows my sister as well mailed me and has begun to express his love .
god knows who the hell this guy is . as of now i dont have an inkling !!!

BLESSED WITH A FRIEND

I HAVE THIS FRIEND WITH WHOM I HAVE BEEN FRIENDS SINCE I WAS 1.5 YEARS OLD . THE OTHER DAY HE CALLED UP AND WISHED ME HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY AND ASKED ME HOW I WOULD LIKE TO CELEBRATE MY B'DAY .
I WAS TAKEN ABACK . MY B'DAY IS STILL 3 MONTHS AWAY .
NO THIS GUY IS NOT IN LOVE WITH ME . HE HAS A GF AND IS ABOUT TO GET MARRIED SOON (HOPEFULLY !!!)


I WAS TOUCHED NEEDLESS TO SAY
AND NEEDLESS TO SAY COMPARISONS POURED IN . MR EGO NEVER THOUGHT OF MAKING MY B'DAY SPECIAL , NEVER GIFTED ME ANYTHING ..
IT WAS ALWAYS A DRY WISH AT 12 : 00 AND HE WOULD GO OFF TO SLEEP .

MAY BE THIS GUY WONT DO ANYTHING OUT OF THE BOX OR SPECIAL ...
BUT ATLEAST HE SAID ... MOST PEOPLE CANT EVEN DO THAT ....