Monday, July 6, 2009

lack of conscience


My friends tell me that I am a ‘hard core feminist’….now whatever that means , this phrase kind of follows me everywhere in whatever I speak or do . my friends have kind of tagged me .

I am helpless , but there are certain things that really trigger me .

Of late , I have come to the conclusion that guys are secretive and cold when comes to hiding their past . girls are made fun of coz of their inability to keep to themselves what they know . funny it may seem , but its safe .

I am quite a lot into the idiot box and its products .

I a serial about four women and their journeys of life , there is a women who at the age of 60 comes to know that her husband has another wife in a different city since the past 30 years and she never came to know of it !!!!

I know what you are thinking … “ these soap makers and their weird stories !!”

But don’t these stories reflect our lives ??

Lets go a little closer to reality … a famous “item gal” is all set to tie the knot and has arranged for her swayamvar sabha . 16 men have been selected to seek her hand. In a shocking revelation , she comes to know that one of the men , is married and has 3 children !! the explanation : his religion allows it .

The girl was wise enough to ask him leave ..

Even now if you are not convinced enough , heres a small incident for you …

One of my friends studying in Bhopal was seeing a guy since she was in her first year … after 3 years of love , passion and commitment she bumps on this guy at her younger sister’s school . the guy had come with his wife to pick up his 3 year old kid from school !!

And me ?
I loved a guy for more than 5 years ,built hopes , made promises and came to know that he had hidden his name, place of stay , qualifications and god knows what all from me…
He has fake profiles in social networking sites , talks to teenaged and young gals , sends sexually explicit messages , uses his webcam ( its existence unknown to me ) in ways that were never acceptable to me ..

Never acceptable ? sounds funny to my ears .. I not only accepted this habbit of his but I fell in love with him … made him promise that he would never indulge in such activities .. he promised me …and I was happy …little did I realize how fake his promises were…

He never attempted to clear his stance .. and when I asked he said that I was indulging in mud slinging (but my dear , what will a lil more mud do to your already soiled conscience ???), he labeled me as a prejudiced person …what more could I say???
The change in a name or a qualification doesn’t matter much .. but it fills me with a fear that the person who can so cold bloodedly hide his identity from me , what else has he hidden from me or might hide in the future if I accept him again …
And anyways the question of acceptance does not come , he has quite happily moved on .. never contacted me after that day of revelation and confessions that followed .

My attempts have proved futile ..

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