Was too tired to make an entry on Sunday . it was a remarkable day of sorts … met 3 of my school friends .. and had a gala time .
At times like this , I realize that had it not been for my friends , I would have been dead by now … if not anatomically atleast emotionally .
My hard work seems to have resulted on a zero with my job put on hold due to recession for so long now …another 4 and a half months to go …
My emotional investment (that is what I would term my relationship) ended ib a rather unexpected manner … this specially had drained me of all my softness , my emotions …
I put up my smiling happy pics on networking sites , I meet friends , laugh with them , talk to them , I chill out with my cousins , I give company to my parents …
Not even for a moment do I let my depression come out in front of anyone …
A couple of days back , I was searching suicide stories on google and came to notice after reading quite a few of them , that they commit suicides when everyone thinks that everything is going on perfectly with the fellow..
Like my mother knows that I was quite shaken by my break up …a couple of friends know ..
But my mother sees that I am happy , I watch movies , go out with friends and am aperfectly happy person ..
Were I to do something drastic …everyone would be on their wit’s end as to what led to such an end ..
Anyways I am not planning to do anything like that..
But thank god , you have atleast given me a set of friends who are always quite eager 2 meet me , talk 2 me and support me when I need them …
At times like this , I realize that had it not been for my friends , I would have been dead by now … if not anatomically atleast emotionally .
My hard work seems to have resulted on a zero with my job put on hold due to recession for so long now …another 4 and a half months to go …
My emotional investment (that is what I would term my relationship) ended ib a rather unexpected manner … this specially had drained me of all my softness , my emotions …
I put up my smiling happy pics on networking sites , I meet friends , laugh with them , talk to them , I chill out with my cousins , I give company to my parents …
Not even for a moment do I let my depression come out in front of anyone …
A couple of days back , I was searching suicide stories on google and came to notice after reading quite a few of them , that they commit suicides when everyone thinks that everything is going on perfectly with the fellow..
Like my mother knows that I was quite shaken by my break up …a couple of friends know ..
But my mother sees that I am happy , I watch movies , go out with friends and am aperfectly happy person ..
Were I to do something drastic …everyone would be on their wit’s end as to what led to such an end ..
Anyways I am not planning to do anything like that..
But thank god , you have atleast given me a set of friends who are always quite eager 2 meet me , talk 2 me and support me when I need them …
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